Don’t know if I’ve mentioned it, but we’re gonna have a baby soon. I know, big surprise, right? What’s been surprising to me is my own reaction to this whole baby thing. Right now, like that infamous cat, the child exists in a quantum state. It is neither here, nor non-existent. But more importantly, the possibilities for Speck are endless at this moment. Or at least, my thoughts on the possibilities. At this point, Speck can still be a rock and roll star (despite neither of its parents having any noticeable musical skills).
I see small children and I wonder if that’s how my child will behave. I see teenagers and wonder if that’s how my child will behave. Will Speck be a good kid who engages in mischief or a bad kid with glimmers of hope. Will they learn from example or from what we tell them?
Thing is, I have to think about these things now. Not because it will change anything, but because now is the only time I have when Speck is entirely theoretical. In 10 weeks or so, this little creature is going to come into the world and at that point, all bets are off. Oh sure, we as parents still have a whole lot of work to do (and I know only that I don’t know), but our work is tempered by the fact that our little one will have opinions and ideas of their very own. I look at my Etsy wish list for Speck and it’s filled with the kind of geek stuff I love and will certainly use… Until Speck is old enough to decide on its own. And, I’m assured, this time will come much sooner than I’m expecting.
So what’s a soon to be dad to do? I’m channeling old Robin Williams routines (“There’s a part of you imagining your child up there, accepting the Nobel prize, and another part imagining them saying ‘you want fries with that?'”) and then making lists of the things I want to share and hoping the little one will enjoy at least some of my interests. Because until that head pops out, the possibilities are endless. And when it does, it’s my job to make sure they think the possibilities are endless for as long as I can.
And really, what it ultimately comes down to, is I just want to meet this little person and spend the rest of my life getting to know them.